Enoch
Well-Known Member
Now it was my turn to fidget. I sent @duke86fan some pretty personal questions. I did so for a very specific reason. In my experience of talking and observing others in my jobs, I have found people easily identify, empathize, and sympathize with others that have similar struggles and backgrounds to their own. duke, I think has some struggles that may be foreign to many on the forum, so I was hopeful she would be willing to answer these question to expand our ability to understand, empathize, and sympathize.
[I know you don’t identify with your “birth gender,” how has that experience shaped you? Do you have a supportive community?]
How has being trans shaped me?
thats a bit of a personal question to ask, but i like its in good enough taste so i will still answer it. it definitely has made things a bit unique, i often have major fear that i'm a "fake", that i'm not worth HRT and all this stuff.. i don't really have the most supportive community at home, my parents are supportive but at the same time they are very doubting and believe im not "feminine enough", which makes it uncomfortable, most of the time i vent these emotions out on discord in trans specific servers like my friends support server and the server for the web comic "Rain" (thats where my picture comes from btw.. and where the trope "dude, shes a lesbian" comes from)
[I have general and social anxiety and you have shared you do as well. Do you find the forum to be a safe place for you to express yourself or does the forum intimidate you?]
About my anxiety?
I do feel this place has been a safe ground for talking about my anxieties, beyond just venting to them with said discord people it can be useful to get my emotions out through here, i feel safe around you all since you have been basically family to me, I honestly feel really nice about how you all have treated me.
[Not only being one of the youngest members of the forum, but you have also been on the forum longer than most. In what ways have you seen the forum change and do you feel the forum has been an influence on your teenage years, helped formed the person you are today?]
About being one of the youngest and longest lasting members?
Its certainly effected my life, I go on the forums almost daily because you guys honestly are great friends and it really does feel like there is connection.. i remember seeing things like the menomena album being guessed at the very first post of the guess thread, or the torres chips hint, or the memes about me (this isn't even my first forum i've been on, i used to be on the telltale games forum, so forums in general have impacted my life for a long time)
[What song/album would describe your personality?]
Albums that describe my Personality?
This was honestly a really hard one for me, but I chose I Love You Honeybear by Father John Misty again because it feels strangely accurate to me. like me, josh tillman is snarky but serious, detatched but human, its an album that really clicks and feels personal.
[What song/album best describe your beliefs? (Spiritual, Emotional, Existential, Whatever)]
Album that describes my beliefs?
I have a very personal story about this one, you see, i chose the album Pinkerton by Weezer for this option, not because i feel i am always "emo" and depressed, but more because its the ultimate adolescent time capsule. I relate to the frustrating feelings of just songs like "tired of sex" and "across the sea". some songs almost feel autobiographical, since i do actually have some very good friends who i could never see because they are across the sea, i am sometimes as offensive and dirty as rivers was in that album. and "butterfly".. the line "i'm sorry for what i did" hits me more than it really should, because i done things to friends i honestly regret, i lost some friends because i was jealous of them, wishing i was better than them, in fact that jealousy is some of the proof i have of being trans, no cis man would be jealous of a trans woman coming out to the point of being stalkery.
so hows that for an answer.
[If you met someone who has never heard music ever, what album would you play for them first?]
If i met someone who's never heard music what would i show them?
At first i was gonna shitpost and say Trout Mask Replica, because in a weird way i assumed if they never heard music they must be aliens, and we fight alien logic with alien logic, plus might as well put them on the deep end of music. but then i thought "if i seriously wanted to show them the wonders of music, what would i want to show them". so i went with Frank Ocean's Blonde, an album full of ambient texture to reel the person in, and lyrics and singing personal enough to make them feel true emotion. i feel like showing this to someone would knock them off their feet and have them looking for more.. and thats what a good first album should do
What question would you like to ask the next person interviewed?
Was there any album you didn't expect to enjoy as much as you did? maybe it was one you thought was just a joke or one you thought was not for you personally, but then wowed you?
[I know you don’t identify with your “birth gender,” how has that experience shaped you? Do you have a supportive community?]
How has being trans shaped me?
thats a bit of a personal question to ask, but i like its in good enough taste so i will still answer it. it definitely has made things a bit unique, i often have major fear that i'm a "fake", that i'm not worth HRT and all this stuff.. i don't really have the most supportive community at home, my parents are supportive but at the same time they are very doubting and believe im not "feminine enough", which makes it uncomfortable, most of the time i vent these emotions out on discord in trans specific servers like my friends support server and the server for the web comic "Rain" (thats where my picture comes from btw.. and where the trope "dude, shes a lesbian" comes from)
[I have general and social anxiety and you have shared you do as well. Do you find the forum to be a safe place for you to express yourself or does the forum intimidate you?]
About my anxiety?
I do feel this place has been a safe ground for talking about my anxieties, beyond just venting to them with said discord people it can be useful to get my emotions out through here, i feel safe around you all since you have been basically family to me, I honestly feel really nice about how you all have treated me.
[Not only being one of the youngest members of the forum, but you have also been on the forum longer than most. In what ways have you seen the forum change and do you feel the forum has been an influence on your teenage years, helped formed the person you are today?]
About being one of the youngest and longest lasting members?
Its certainly effected my life, I go on the forums almost daily because you guys honestly are great friends and it really does feel like there is connection.. i remember seeing things like the menomena album being guessed at the very first post of the guess thread, or the torres chips hint, or the memes about me (this isn't even my first forum i've been on, i used to be on the telltale games forum, so forums in general have impacted my life for a long time)
[What song/album would describe your personality?]
Albums that describe my Personality?
This was honestly a really hard one for me, but I chose I Love You Honeybear by Father John Misty again because it feels strangely accurate to me. like me, josh tillman is snarky but serious, detatched but human, its an album that really clicks and feels personal.
[What song/album best describe your beliefs? (Spiritual, Emotional, Existential, Whatever)]
Album that describes my beliefs?
I have a very personal story about this one, you see, i chose the album Pinkerton by Weezer for this option, not because i feel i am always "emo" and depressed, but more because its the ultimate adolescent time capsule. I relate to the frustrating feelings of just songs like "tired of sex" and "across the sea". some songs almost feel autobiographical, since i do actually have some very good friends who i could never see because they are across the sea, i am sometimes as offensive and dirty as rivers was in that album. and "butterfly".. the line "i'm sorry for what i did" hits me more than it really should, because i done things to friends i honestly regret, i lost some friends because i was jealous of them, wishing i was better than them, in fact that jealousy is some of the proof i have of being trans, no cis man would be jealous of a trans woman coming out to the point of being stalkery.
so hows that for an answer.
[If you met someone who has never heard music ever, what album would you play for them first?]
If i met someone who's never heard music what would i show them?
At first i was gonna shitpost and say Trout Mask Replica, because in a weird way i assumed if they never heard music they must be aliens, and we fight alien logic with alien logic, plus might as well put them on the deep end of music. but then i thought "if i seriously wanted to show them the wonders of music, what would i want to show them". so i went with Frank Ocean's Blonde, an album full of ambient texture to reel the person in, and lyrics and singing personal enough to make them feel true emotion. i feel like showing this to someone would knock them off their feet and have them looking for more.. and thats what a good first album should do
What question would you like to ask the next person interviewed?
Was there any album you didn't expect to enjoy as much as you did? maybe it was one you thought was just a joke or one you thought was not for you personally, but then wowed you?
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