I’ve finished my 3rd listen and DAMN I love this record. It incorporates retro sounds and styles (that I love), but usually twists and spins them in unconventional (and interesting) ways. It’s not a concept album, but the songs do share themes of transformation and change, sometimes welcome, sometimes not.
A Little Crazy at first seems like a conventional, if a bit old-fashioned, getting over a breakup song. After thinking about it for a while, though, I don’t know that I’ve heard anything like it before. Usually songs in this style are (1) I was stupid to love you (2) you’re going to regret leaving me (3) it sucks but I’ll move on, (4) angry. This song, though, with the slide guitar emphasizing the overwrought feelings in the song and that voice break at about 3:20 mark, suggests maybe the character-singer is a little crazy. This suggestion is without judgment or ironic humor, but rather an acknowledgement that although they are trying to keep it together, they’re not always successful.
Darkness Falls So Quiet explores another kind of transformation, a more welcome one. To me, the singer-character here is lonely in an uncaring relationship, then decides to leave, with her partner left alone.
Listen Up is a favorite of mine, with some old school R&B. It reminded me of those kinds of soul “I’m a badass and telling it like it is” jams. Except the lyrics show she’s not really asserting strength. She’s in bad shape and asking for help. And she only asks for help when she is in a bad place; she doesn’t take advice to avoid bad situations. There is a suggestion that this wasn’t the first time she’s in this spot and there’s a dark suggestion she really hasn’t learned anything. The power behind this song is a false confidence, a manipulation to get what she needs, then she’s going right back into making mistakes again.
Goodnight Rhonda Lee is from the perspective of somebody tired of dealing with a drunk friend (who, through interviews, is really her). The music is interesting, like there’s a Texas two-Step vibe, that she’s dancing with a partner in an old dive bar.
If I could is resistant to change, encouraging a static existence. But at the same time, the singer-character acknowledges that such an existence would not enable growth and healing. Ultimately, it is revealed that the singer-character recognizes that she is incapable of providing what the other person needs. The wistfulness in the music and smooth vocals disguise the extreme low self-esteem of the singer-character.
Colors feels almost like a musical theater number, a longing, love song to alcohol.
Brokedown Luck has some POWER SINGING. It’s a real showcase for Atkins’ voice. It shows the frustration and pain with ALMOST getting what she wants, but coming up short due to bad luck (with the suggestion that it might not just be bad luck, but it’s a cover of denial that she falls short due to the singer-character’s own problems).
I love living here (even when I don’t) reminds me so much of what it felt like to me when I was drunk. Wildly fluctuating emotions, a desire to be alone but amongst people, a dislike of where I was but loving the comfort of being in a familiar place. The lyrics are complex, ambivalent, and contradictory. The music is uplifting, depressing, angry, and relaxed. It’s the song I keep going back to because I feel like I get a different take on it every time.
Sleepwalking. GODDAMN. I LOVE this song! It’s one of the best songs I’ve heard this year. The lyrics are depressing, with the line “sleepwalking around the world I used to dream in.” I can relate to that feeling. She doesn’t indicate that she’s NOT feeling that way anymore, she just hopes she feels better soon. But the music is so...like a 60s love song, contrasting beautifully, actually inspiring and pushing for that hopefulness!! Gah, I love this song.
A night of serious drinking reminds me of Lou Reed’s delivery. And it feels like there are ambiguities and contradictions. I THINK it’s about the singer-character returning again and again to the same old romantic/hookup that never works out, but they get drunk and do it again anyway.
A dream without Pain ends the record on a high note. She’s aspiring for something better. But it’s not a song of triumph but rather one of longing and uncertainty. She woke up from a nightmare, to a dream, not reality.
Anyway, that’s what I’ve gotten out of it so far. I look forward to hearing other takes and thoughts on the album!